Entry 39 – My Mid-Life ‘Christ-is’ and Died Again Christians
I turned 40 this year. Ah yes, the inimitable age where many men go to find, and hopefully bury, their inner dream-crasher demons. To speed along my process, I gave myself what every budding 40-year-old male needs…the proverbial mid-life crisis, or as I am now referring to it…my mid life ‘Christ-is’.
‘Christ-is’ because I still find myself even 18 years out from a supposed personal relationship with the imaginary Jesus character, still trying to figure out my place in this secular world without Christ. I am neither comfortable with, nor comforted by my prospects for the next 40 years on the planet.
I ask outright, and sincerely…Why do I continue to struggle with this seemingly simple thing of just being a part of the regular world? When I had my imaginary Jesus friend, I believed that I was supposed to be ’in the world’, but not ‘of the world’. Now, as someone who doesn’t have a supernatural view of the world any longer, I see these as not mutually exclusive.
I have been feeling quite dejected as of late trying to answer this question until this past week when I downloaded and listened to Dr Robert Price’s interview with Dr. Jaco Gericke on Point of Inquiry’s weekly podcast for July 25th, 2011. I had never heard the term, ’Died Again Christian’, but Dr. Jaco Gericke explained it thoroughly, and by the end of the interview, had me convinced that his ’Died Again’ was my ‘Recovering’, just better articulated.
Here is the link to the interview if you are interested in listening:
What a breath of fresh air it was to listen to Dr. Gericke speak about his slow, painful, inevitable, and ultimately irreversible letting go of faith in supernatural beings related to the Old and New Testaments. After listening to Dr. Gericke speak extemporaneously on numerous topics related to losing one’s faith in the supernatural, I finally had something, someone, to compare my life to and go, wow, this guy really gets the pain and personal anguish I’ve gone through leaving the Christian faith. I could sit down and have a conversation with this guy and he and I would most undoubtedly ‘get’ each other.
Will leave it at that for the time being. Thanks for checking by, and as always, I welcome any and all comments you would like to post about this entry.