Entry 41 – Location, Location, Location
Orginially written in April 2012, but posted on September 10th, 2012:
It’s been an incredibly busy last 6 months since moving my family to a new city here in California for a new job. We’re in a good location, though very expensive. My new position is slightly little less stressful than my previous one, but still away from home about the same amount of time as before due to my commute.
I’m learning a great deal everyday, which is good. What I lack however, is the time, and frankly, the desire, to cultivate friendships. I hope, in time, the desire to cultivate these good conversations with others will come. I see other people in the area who have families close by, friends they’ve grown up with, etc. and I have to admit that I am jealous.
Not only am I jealous, I am starting to wonder if my vowing Goodbye and God Bless moments mentioned in my previous entry #40 were a bit too confident and premature.
I woke up the other night thinking something I never in a million years would have thought I would have thought: ’Hey, maybe it would be good if I went back to church, if even just to make some friends.”
Yes, I had that thought about a week ago.
It was hard to just write and admit that last sentence.
Think I’m going to leave it there for now, and see how I do over the course of a few weeks.
Thanks for stopping by…
TRC
You know if you do that, your bond with those people would be based on a lie.
Definitely a good point. I’d want to go into it being open about my atheism. Overall, going back to church, probably not the greatest idea I’ve had, but I wanted to write about my feelings as of late regarding this topic of community and friendship, and how I’m still struggling to find that balance in my life. ! thanks for your post and checking out the website. Have a great Thursday! TRC
I have had the same thought and was equally confused.